I woke up this morning at 4:57AM. Believe me it was not on purpose. As a result of this, I am tired, cranky and annoyed. This is not a good combination. I'm surrounded by all sorts of noise. For example, loud horns, loud trains loud music, loud people, and inconsiderate neighbors who allow their children to go to make noise all day and all night. They go to bed extremely late, get up extremely early to dragging or dropping things on and across the floor. I cannot stand noise and it makes my ears hurt. Talking to the parents is useless. It seems as though they cannot control them.
I expect children to play and make noise. Nonetheless, after a certain time all horse play should cease. I have a ten year old who likes to dance, flip and bounce around. However, she is not allowed to do any activity of those activities during the week after 7:30pm (except Friday), before noon during the weekend, after 9:30 on Saturday or after 8 on Sunday. Between 9:00 and 9:30, Sunday-Thursday, she is in the bed.
If that's not enough, around 8:30am this morning, some random person rang my doorbell. I did not bother to answer it because everyone has been informed to call me before showing up at my apartment. However, this person was persistent. I went to the intercom and yelled in my meanest voice "who is it"? Silence. I asked again. The person never said their name. Then she asked "can you let me in"? I said no I cannot. I asked, "do I know you?" She responded, "no". I replied, "then I'm definitely not letting you in get a freaking key. If you live here you would have a key. If you are visiting someone and he/she is expecting you then he/she would have buzzed you into the building".
This morning, I realized I'm getting older. My patience is slowly declining. I can't tolerate too much of anything especially noise. My ears have become very sensitive. I appreciate peace, stillness and quietness. It allows me to focus, think, enjoy the moment and to see things for what the really are. In order for me to achieve and enjoy peace and quietness, I will have to move where no one lives over me and no where near a major street, highway or road.
|My Dream Serenity|
Do you have any suggestions?