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Yesterday, I Was.....Today, I Am.....

Yesterday, I was.....
A writer with no words to write An author with nothing to publish An artist with a blank canvas A singer without a song to sing A runner, with no sense of direction and going nowhere fastAn athlete with no game to play A teacher who has nothing to teach Guarded and afraid to love another manA parent who felt unsure as I faced problem and challenges of motherhoodI was a prisoner of my pastLiving in fear
Today, I am.....
A writer who has much to say An author who will tell her storyAn artist who has created the vision I want for my lifeA singer with a song in my heart and praise in my mouth. Taking the necessary steps to move my life in a more meaningful directionLearning to succeed at this game called life A mother who taught her daughters to love themselves mind, body and soulA mother who taught her daughters to surround themselves with positive people Vulnerable and willing to take the risk of loving againLearning from my mistakes and becoming a better parent and…

Happy Birthday Mother

To be a mother at 16 was not an easy task
I am sure you were frightened and did not know what to do
You probably cried day and night, but you had to see this journey through
My father said I was not his and for both you and me it was a horrible day
Unlike him, you did not have the option to turn and walk away

Nine months later I entered the world
They swaddled me in cloth and introduced you to your baby girl
There were many nights you did not get much sleep
There were good times and bad times, regardless I was yours to keep
We have had disagreements, but with prayer and the will of God, we made it through

The sun did not shine always and there were several days of rain
With God’s grace and mercy together we crossed milestones and we made it through the pain
Thank you for giving me life and being my eyes when I could not see
Thank you for your encouragement and believing in me
Thank you for being there for my girl's from the very start
You will always have a special place in our h…

My Sunday Morning Reflection

Happy Sunday. I am up and getting ready for church. I have been going through a storm for a while. Nonetheless, I still smile. I will not complain. I will remain to myself and fight the good fight. I  know at the end of the day God will sustain me while I am in the in between time. I have also had an internal battle and yesterday at Emmanuel Baptist Church, I was reminded "There is no room for joy and happiness if you carry around bitterness, anger, hatred and negativity". I am not bitter. Nor do I have hatred for anyone. I do have a strong dislike for certain people. However, I'll be the first to say that I am angry about a few things and disappointed with a few people. I will also say that I have a very hard time trusting people.I am disappointed with a few of my family members. I am disappointed with myself because I expect family and friends to react to or do things the way I would react to or do things. I put feelings my personal feelings aside and rise to the occas…

Help! My Daughter Is Driving Me Crazy.

Today, I will be the one venting and please do not judge me.  I am sure I am not the only one who has felt this way. However, I am the only one who choses to speak on it. I will give you all a synopsis.
I have a 19 year old and 13 year old. They are like night and day. For the past few days, my 13 year has been getting on my last nerve. So much so, today I wanted to pop her in the mouth because she thinks she is suppose to have the last word. Instead I raised my voice an octave and put the fear of God in her.  I ended with the statement, "I  don't know who you think you are talking to, but I am not one of your friends. Do not play with me little girl. Consider this your warning".
I went into my internal mommy space and had a woosah moment. I had a talk with myself. I said to myself, "Girl, I am glad you did not pop your daughter in the mouth. You know why she is lashing out. Now you have to find a way to deal with the issue at hand. You have to remain calm so your…