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Peace In The Valley

Two and a half months ago I was in the midst of a terrible storm. Everything that could go wrong did. I had to postpone receiving the right hand of fellowship, my relationship was ending, I was being accused of something that was not true which caused a lot of anger and frustration within me, as well as, tension in my home, I could not sleep and I could not focus. I was losing myself. One mild October Saturday, I decided to go to Shop Rite at Gateway Mall. When I entered I stopped to smell the flowers. For some reason doing this was calming to my spirit. I then proceeded to look at the plants. I browsed all that where there, but I kept going back to this one specific plant. The leaves were dark green, glossy and had white lilies. Before I finished my grocery shopping, I headed back towards the florist to purchase the plant. I had no idea which classification the flower belonged. I had no idea whats the name of the flower. It didn't matter as long as it was in my possession. I forgot to ask the florist the name of the flower, but I made a mental note to ask when I returned.


The following week the girls wanted to go to Five And Below to purchase a few things for Halloween. So of course I stopped at Shop Rite to find out the name of my flower. I was told the name of the plant is Spathiphyllum, which is a Latin word that means prosperity and peace. It is also known as the "Peace Lily". During my research, I found the "peace lily" can have several different meanings, such as innocence, tranquility, solitude, peace, purity, hope, prosperity and balance (of energy). I also read symbolizes Christs resurrection from the dead. Well, I must say that during my storm, my entire being was being tossed back and forth. I was mentally, emotionally, spiritually and physically drained. I really had nothing left to give to anyone. I was losing all hope. I was slowly dying. I believe the Lord lead me to Shop Rite that day to purchase the peace lily.

As the days, weeks and months go by, I am slowly getting back to me. It's not easy as I get overwhelmed, but I remain hopeful. Everyday, I am grateful because my soul has been resurrected from the dead. I now have peace and calmness my life and in my home. Things seem to be going in the right direction. There is a positive force illuminating in home. Give are the days of discord and strife that affected me, my girls and home. I decided to begin the implementation process for my new life and new environment for my family. I found that this plant is symbolic of so many things I was longing for and required in my life, my home, my personal space and my for daughters. After all that I have endured, I chose to rise above the storm, stand in my peace and breathe.

I have Learned a valuable lesson from what has happened. I won't make that mistake again. Never Again, No More. I choose to Live in the present. I still have Hope for the future.

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