Today, while waiting for the train, I did a recap of all events that occurred these past few months, but especially these past few days. Some days were better than others. Lately, life's events have made me feel as though I was drowning. No matter what I did it felt like I was sinking. I could not keep my head above water. As months and days passed, it did not seem like it was getting any better.I had no fight left in me. I was willing to give up. I was willing to drown.One Sunday morning during the month of March, I was informed of the women's conference that was scheduled to take place in May at Emmanuel Baptist Church. It seemed interesting and I requested a flyer. Week passed and I still was undecided. On Sunday April 24, 2016, the sermon was based on the subject "Go As God Leads". After hearing that sermon, I decided to attend the conference.
This past weekend was enlightening. I attended the 2016 Chosen Women Conference at Emmanuel Baptist Church. (I will talk about the conference in a separate post). I was excited about this conference all week. The day of the conference everything that could have gone wrong did. It was obstacle after obstacle. I was ready to through in the towel. I was late and decided that I was not going to attend. Then I had a conversation with myself. I said self, you are doing exactly what Satan wants you to do. You will get yourself up and go to this conference late and all. So I listened and I attended the conference. I must say, I am glad I did. Sunday morning came and I attended both services. The sermons were completely different and I received a message from both services. The first sermon was entitled "There Is Purpose In The Process". It was during this sermon, I had an aha moment. It was during this sermon, I realized that my life guard walks on water.
For the life of me, I could not understand why bad things happen to me when I am trying to do good.
Nonetheless, I understand now. Everything that I have gone through in my life and these past few days, is part of the process. He is preparing me for something. What's that something is I do not know. MAYBE, he is preparing to walk in my purpose. I honestly do not know. I do know that I have to go through this process, but I am not alone. In this process there will be progress. As I go through this process, I believe it will ultimately lead me to my purpose.
I understand that everything that happens to us is not orchestrated by God, although he allows it to happen. I understand that I am dealing with a situation that was orchestrated to bring me down, but God has my back. I understand that I may have been placed in this situation to teach someone a lesson, to learn a lesson myself or perhaps both. I understand that everything happens for a reason. Although God has yet to reveal the reason to me. I have no choice to but to wait patiently. While I wait, I am learning that no mater how dark it seems, no matter how bad a situation may appear, God is in the background working it out in my favor. God has a plan for my life. Despite the situation, he is preparing me for the next level.
You said "Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified for the Lord your God goes with you; he promised never to leave you nor forsake you. This situation is of evil, but it will not prosper. It has kept me up at night. I have cried many tears.Nonetheless, I know without a shadow of a doubt that you will see me through it.I am giving you all the glory in advance. I was praising you before this situation, I will praise you during it and I will continue to praise you after. AMEN.